Honestly For You 16

Coliseums were all looking the same now.  He didn't have a clue what city they were in, but the gray concrete insides of the coliseum seemed familiar enough.  Justin walked down the hallway staring at the in ear monitors that he wore during the show.  His batter pack was malfunctioning and he was trying to figure out if there was something caught in the speakers or not. For a normal person, walking and staring at something like that would be hard to do, but for him he seemed to use some sixth sense to wind his way through the hallways towards where he remembered where the production office was.

"Have you seen Mere?" he asked without looking at the man that was walking along with him.  He'd woken up that morning in the bus to find Meredith already out and working and had only seen her for a little while before they'd run through their song once.  He'd been having trouble with his ear monitors so while she went offstage, he'd tried to work with the crew to fix the problem, but things still hadn't been settled.

His shoulders slumped as he walked making the jeans, t-shirt, and running shoes he wore seem even more sloppy on him.  His hands and half a brain stayed on the trouble that was in front of his eyes as he stared at the ear monitor, but the other half of his brain was worried about her.  He didn't like that she was gone when he woke up, but being back on a work schedule was definitely going to put a cramp in the schedule that he had gotten used to over the weekend.  Being with her like that had made him feel at least a little normal and he wanted that back desparately.

Todd didn't flinch when Justin's question was directed out to the general public and not in his direction.  He coughed and bumped into Justin a little to make him move out of the way of someone coming their way.  "Last I saw her she was heading towards the buses.  Gritty was saying that she had a headache earlier."

"Hmm,"  Justin shook the ear monitor and frowned.  It had sounded earlier like the thing had blown out on him.  He'd been warned before that he messed with the sound levels too much, but it seemed now that maybe he had turned the volume up too loud and really had broken the dang thing.  Feeling the frustration, he dropped it, letting it hang from the cord that was running up his back and down over his shouler from the battery pack on his belt.

When Justin finally looked at him Todd was frowning.  The guy was a little more than bored this tour.  Justin was being the good boyfriend and not doing as much partying, making it hard for Todd to socialize with people outside the tour.  He was working hard now to find things to do with himself.  "You want me to go check on her while you talk to Dean?"

"Naw."  He tried to stay calm about things.  His heart went out to her if she did have a headache.  His instinct was to run out there immediately to ask her what was wrong, but knew that he shouldn't.  He had been with her all weekend and thought that she was starting to get bugged by him.  If she was still feeling bad a little later he'd see what was wrong, but at this point he didn't want to crowd her.  "I'll get this fixed then run out there."  He looked at his watch.  "I've got time.  I think."

"Oh.  Did you call your brother and tell him that he's gonna be in Orlando for his birthday?"

"Shit."  Justin picked up his ear monitor and looked at it again.  He should have called his brothers to tell them that they were coming to Orlando for Steven's birthday, but he hadn't gotten around to it.  He didn't want to think about going home again until it was time to go back.  No sense in spending time day dreaming about things that weren't coming up for a few weeks.  "I'll do it later.  I'll call him in the morning.  Jonathan and Steven should be ok until then.  They'll never get to sleep tonight if I tell them now."

Suddenly he stopped and looked around.  He had thought that they had been going in the right direction, but he wasn't sure now.  "Where the hell are we?"

Todd laughed a little and pointed towards the door marked Production.

Justin almost tripped over his feet as they went into the room.  Willy the sound guy was sitting with a tool box open in front of him and a huge sound board turned upside down working on it, but when Justin came in he turned and looked at him.  "Troubles?"

"I can't hear," he said then smiled a little when he realized what he'd just said.  Farzana had told him to listen differently and he was trying to, but it was hard.

"What?" Todd asked staring at his face.

"Nothing," Justin said as he removed the battery pack on his belt and put the monitors on the table.  "Just thinking."

Todd frowned.  "If you're getting all kinky in your head about your woman please don't let me know."

"Nothing like that," Justin said.

Todd bumped him with an arm.  "You sure?"

"I should call my brothers," he said.

"Nice save," Willy said with a laugh and began to work.

Justin grabbed up his phone, but found that the signal of his phone was weak.  He knew he should stick around and see if Willy needed him to check the monitors so he looked around for a minute and found a landline phone.  "Can I use that?"

"Sure," Willy said, "But you have to use a calling card thing for it."

"No troubles," Justin said and picked up the phone.  He punched the numbers quickly and soon was hearing the phone in his dad's house in Tennessee ringing.

"You've reached Steven and Jonathan and mom and dad too--"  The recorded voice of his little brother almost brought tears to his eyes.  He'd seen them a few weeks ago, but hadn't spent enough time with them.  "Leave a message."

"Hey Steven, Jonathan, Lisa, and dad.  It's Justin--"

The sound of the phone being picked up and a squeek filled the line.  "Justin?"

"Steven?"  he asked.

"Yeah," he said, "Mommy wouldn't let me answer the phone, but when she heard it was you she said I could get it."

"How are you doing buddy?" he asked leaned against the wall to talk.

"Good," he said, "Are you coming to my birthday party?"

Justin sighed.  He hated conversations like this.  He hated to hear his brothers or his parents upset at him.  It was almost worse than having Meredith upset with him.  "I'm not sure if I can."

"What?" Steven said, "You pro-omised."

"Well--"  He took a deep breath and prayed that his brother wouldn't cry.  He didn't want to have his brother cry at him right now.  There was too much to do that night and trying to calm him down wasn't going to be able to be worked into his schedule.  As sad as it sounded, it wasn't that he didn't want to talk to him that much, but when Steven got upset he needed more time to talk to him and explain things to him.  He was sensitive and needed extra care that Justin didn't have time to give at the moment.  "I was thinking that you and Jonathan could come down to Mommy and Paul's house the weekend after your real birthday so that you guys, Meredith and Me can have a party with Mommy and Paul."

He heard his brother perk up.  Coming to visit always seemed to make him happy.  "We can?"

"You have to ask Lisa and Daddy," Justin said, "I'm sure--"

"Can Jonathan and me go to Orlando to see Justin?"

He heard Lisa's voice in the background then a moment later Steven got back on.  "Mommy wants to talk to you."


Todd laughed at him as Justin straightened up his posture when his step mother got onto the phone.

"Hey Justin."

"I know it's short notice, but do you think they could come down for the day or something?"  He said, "I'm not gonna be able to make it home for his birthday and I haven't seen him and Jonathan in a few weeks now."

"I think that would be ok," Lisa said.

"Are you sure?" he asked, "I know that you and Dad get upset when I fly them places."

"I think this will be ok," she said.  "Are you ok?  You're sounding tired."

"I am," he said, "It's been a long week.  Mere and I went down to Orlando for her birthday and only stayed a day or two now we're back on the road."

"Well you take care of yourself and Mere too," she said, "When you make plans for your brothers call me and let me know when you want them.  I'll have your dad call you and leave you a message tonight.  I'm sure he'll be upset that he missed you.  Also you should call Grandma.  She was missing you yesterday for some reason."

"Ok," he said, "I will. Tell Steven that I'll get him his birthday present when he comes to visit."


"I've gotta run, but I'll talk to you guys soon."

"Love you honey," she said.

"I love you too Lisa," he said, "Tell everyone else that I love them too."


Meredith lay on her bed and stared at the ceiling.  Her thoughts were making her crazy.  She couldn't sit still for long so when she finally got fed up with that position she got up and changed into pajama bottoms.  When she was feeling a little more comfortable she plumped up the pillows and stared at the ceiling again.

She'd realized that morning that her period was late.  She had been paying attention to her own little body schedule, but she was usually so regular that she didn't really think about it too much, until she realized that it was almost two weeks late.  Her night with Justin a few days before had been great, but she was now thinking that their short little romp in the grass was going to cost her more than just being embarrassed about where she and he decided to have sex.

Groaning she rolled over onto her side and reached for her phone.  She ran through a list of people to call and the first one that came to mind was Farzana.  She would have called Addy, but then the news of this would have gotten back to both her parents and Justin's parents and no matter how much she thought she was a grown up, news like that for parents was definitely something that needed to be either true of false before it got reported to them.  There was nothing like the words "maybe pregnant" to freak out parents and cause mass distruction in family structures.   She knew that this wasn't something she usually would talk to a friend about, other than joking around about, but she knew she needed to talk to someone.

Her fingers dialed the number and soon it was ringing.  When it was picked up she heard JC and not Farzana's voice on the line.  "Hey JC.  It's Mere.  Is Farzana around?"

"Yeah Mere," he said, "Hold on just a second."

She heard him lean back and call to Farzana then a few moments later she got on the phone.  "Hey girly."

"Hi," she said hating that she sounded so serious.  It seemed like the only conversations they had lately were about stressful situations and subjects that two friends shouldn't always be talking about.  "I need to talk to you."

"Is it something with Justin?" Farzana immediately went into big sister mode and sounded overly concerned about the situation.

"Kind of--"  She could hear JC and someone else watching television and she knew that this wasn't something she wanted him to hear.   "Can you please not stand next to JC when I talk to you?  I don't want to be mean, but I really don't want him listening in on this conversation.  Not that he's a peeping tom--"

"Sure," Farzana said and she heard her moving away.  "This sounds serious."

JC said something in the background and Farzana told him she'd be back in a minute.

"Ok," Farzana sighed, "What's up?"

Meredith went and closed the door to the back bedroom.  Just the thought of saying this outloud was going to make her cry.  If she said it out loud it would make it real and not just something her mind had cooked up to freak her out a little and torture her for being irresponsible.  "I think I might be pregnant."

"What?"  She couldn't see her friend, but she knew that her jaw had just dropped.  "What?  Are you sure?  Did you take a test?  How long ago did you figure this out?"

"I'm two weeks late on my period and I haven't taken a test.  I don't think I can just go to the store and buy one and I can't just make an OBGYN appointment out of the blue.  Everyone will know."  Meredith shuttered at the idea of flying back to Orlando for a doctors appointment and having it be on Extra or Entertainment Tonight.

"You need to find someone who will get you one," she said, "Or you need to make an appointment. That isn't just something you should let go."

"I know," Meredith said, "I don't know what I'm gonna do."  Tears formed in her eyes.  "I can't tell Justin.  I think he'll throw a fit or something if he found out right now."

"Don't go crazy this soon into the game," Farzana said, "Where are you guys staying tomorrow?"

"I don't have a clue," she said.

A sigh could be heard over the line.  She didn't know how to take that sigh.  Either Mere had reached the limits of their friendships or this was something that Farzana didn't know how to deal with.  "Look, you need to tell Gritty that you need to go shopping or find someone to go and buy one for you."

Meredith shook her head.  She felt like a little girl not being able to do things like this.  It was like junior high again when the girls would whisper about girl stuff and the boys would always think they were sick for talking about stuff like that.  "I don't think I can do that."

"Well are you going to be on tour every day this week?"  She could see her friend's mind kick into gear.  She was already forming a plan.

"Yeah."  She didn't have to check her schedule to know when she had days away from tour.  Lately she was living for them.  "Until next Friday.  I fly up to New York for a day while Justin goes home then I have to fly back down to Orlando to meet up with him for Steven's birthday, or at least that's the plan so far.  He's gonna get the boys to stay with him down there or at least that's what he said the other day."

"Want me to meet up with you in New York for the night?"  she said, "I'll have someone make an appointment with someone up there for you."

Meredith wanted to cry.  She felt like such a kid because she couldn't do this stuff for herself and having her friend to help out would make it easier.  "Would you?"

"Sure," she said, "I'm just working with the group so I'll ask for a weekend.  I don't know how I'm going to explain this to JC, but I'll think of something."

"Are you sure?"

"Of course," Farzana said, "You'd do it for me."

She lay back on the bed and took a deep breath.  "I'll totally pay for your flight and everything.  I feel so bad."

When a knock sounded on the door Meredith literally jumped.  "I've gotta go.  I'll call you later on this week with all the plans."

"Ok," she said, "I love you."

"I love you too Farzana," Meredith said.

Justin was on the other side of the door when she opened it.  He smiled at her and leaned and kissed her.  "Are you ok?"

"Yeah," she said with a jump, "Why?"

"Todd was saying that you came out here because you had a headache."

"Yeah," she said and moved away from the doorway.  She crawled up onto the bed and pulled a pillow up to her chest.  "I had one coming on so I thought I'd come out here and relax a little so that I don't get a migraine."

"Don't take this the wrong way honey, but you don't look too good," he said and moved to sit next to her.

When he came close to her she rolled over onto her stomach and propped her chin up with the pillow.  "I think I'm pregnant," she said.

"What?" he asked.

She rolled over and sure enough all the color had drained from his face.

"I'm not kidding."

The color returned to his face.  "What?"

"I think I'm pregnant," she said, "I'm two weeks late with my period."

Justin got up and closed the door.  "You're serious?"

"Yeah," she said.

"Are you ok?" he asked.

"Yeah," she said, "I'm planning on going to the doctor while I'm up in New York."

"Oh."  He seemed to be thinking.  "Did you reschedule your interviews?"

"Damn Justin.  Thanks."

She moved off the bed and found her jeans again.  She pulled off her pajamas and jumped back into her jeans then shoved her feet into a pair of flip flops and turned back to face him.

He just sat there and watched her, looking like he didn't know what to do.  When he didn't make a move to say anything she let out a groan and rushed out of the room.


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